Dear God,
I just want to say Thank You for the amazing life you have provided to me. I thank you for giving and maintaining my drug free life as that is what everything I have is based on. I thank you for maintaining my marriage as it has been a struggle at times mostly due to the lifestyle I lead. I can’t imagine being a wife and having the “normal” and then having that get turned completely upside down must be hard to handle at times. Don’t think for a minute that I do not understand what I have done to our family financially and emotionally and that I do not appreciate what you as my wife have done to maintain the homefront. I thank you for the 4 healthy, intelligent, beautiful and loving kids that remind me of what life is all about on a daily basis. I thank you for the education and credentials I have as I utilize them to aid others achieve their potential. I thank you for the physical abilities you have given me as they have enabled me to do extroidenary things all are geared to not only personal gains but carrying a message of HOPE to the world. Last but not least, I thank you for Racing for Recovery and all the goodness this program has brought to thousands of lives. I know this is my purpose and it is humbling to be the Founder and Executive Director of such a worthy organization.
I am tired physically now and have one more major physical test of endurance with Ultraman Canada on Aug 1,2 and 3. I have nothing to prove at this point to anyone including myself about what I can accomplish on a physical level so that is not the purpose of this adventure. I am doing this because there is an opportunity to capture not only this event but the personal struggles I face and the benefits Racing for Recovery has had on other lives. That is the purpose of me doing this event.
I have done all I can financially, physically, emotionally, intellectually and spiritually to get Racing for Recovery to where it is today. I also want to say this program would not be where it is without the assistance and support of many people and you all know who you are. Having said that, I am giving this whole thing up and putting it in your hands because I simply do not know what else to do. I do not view this as a bad thing but rather a very positive action of understanding my faith in what you have in store for me in the years ahead. I am tired of going going going to achieve more more more and simply want to enjoy the process and the ride of it all.
What I ask from you is Peace of Mind along the way and simply have my mind slow down a little bit.
Thanks for your time and now I will enjoy my day.
TC
AMEN and well said my friend. GOD is good! God bless you always.
Interestingly enough I have watched you struggle through this journey my friend…sometimes from afar and sometimes very near…I have seen your commitment to others at the expense of your family and or your marriage and kids…and yet one thing remains constant Todd…PERSERVERENCE…I have discovered in my own journey that you must first understand your calling in order to understand yourself…and once you begin to see that in knowing your defects, faults, sins, imperfections, assets and strengths…they can be utilized for a greater calling and more gratifying purpose…hence the demons of your past have now become assets for yours and others futures…I do not believe WE were put on this planet to ACHIEVE….I believe WE were placed here to attain the enlightenment of God by admitting those faults and defects and asking for Help…it is then that we understand HIS calling and that through touching the lives of others…we receive the satisfaction of knowing that helping change the course of another human beings’ direction in life is perhaps one of the greatest things WE will ever accomplish….So I agree you have nothing more to prove…and I personally am not sure you ever tried to…I simply think that each day by doing the next right thing…by giving your all…by living the life that God intended for you to life (spiritually, emotionally, mentally, physically) you will intuitively know what to do next…
Racing has always been the metaphor for life for “Us” endurance athletes…we use it to propel us through the most trying times of our earth journey and it is in the lessons we learn out on the race course…we shall take with us each day to provide an example of living to others and ourselves…who think it CANNOT be done…As you prepare your mind for Ultraman Canada…LET GO AND LET GOD guide you….focus on what you HAVE…not on what you HAVE NOT….ask for Patience and Wisdom to recognize that EVERYTHING happens on God’s time….and in the end…when you have once again achieved your personal goal of the finish line ….you will see that Being Chosen by God…. to disciple His message of Hope, Love, Tolerance, Forgiveness, Courage, Perseverance and Possibility…is for those who have the FAITH to Walk the Walk….remember my friend….”The true measure of success lies not so much in WHAT you have achieved…but in knowing that you have TOUCHED the lives of others!!!!”…..
God Speed my friend….
April
Todd, you TOUCHED our lives in Nevada and had a significant impact on my daughter Marcia and over the past 3 years we have ‘cheered’ you on from a distance. And we were so happy to hear of your participation in UltraMan Canada. We will be vacationing in BC at that time and are planning a picnic in Memorial Park, Summerland on the 3rd, inviting Canadian family and friends, to join us to celebrate your finish and the victory it represents to those who choose with faith the road less traveled and embrace, as April so wisely said it, His message of Hope, Love, Tolerance, Forgiveness, Courage, Perseverence and Possibility.
prayers for strength,
love,
Kathy & Marcia
Todd – you are on the right track. I’m proud of you and glad I have the chance to help out you organization.
All the best,
Dennis
Hey you guys,
Sitting here in my office , thinking about R4R and a song just came on.
I pulled it up on youtube and it brought a smile to my face.
Its by Shawn Mullins these are the lryics from the song Shimmer
sometimes I think of all this that
can surround me
I know it all as being mine
but she kisses me and she wraps herself
around me
she gives me love,she gives me time
and I feel fine
but time I cannot change
so here´s to looking back
you know I drink a whole bottle
of my pride
and I toast to change
to keep these demons off my back
just get these demons off my back
Cause I want to shimmer, I want to shine
I want to radiate
I want to live,I want to love
I want to try to learn not to hate
try not to hate
we´re born to shimmer,
we´re born to shine,
we´re born to radiate,
we´re born to live,we´re born to love
we´re born to never hate
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To all:
If your fighting keep fighting, never give up, and at least in this challenge, Follow the leader : )
Rj