I was schedule to run 100 miles yesterday in a race that has the option to run 50 or 62.  After running 25 miles I decided I was only going to do 50 and a big sense of relief came over me.

The words acceptance and limits with respect to the physical activities finally came to a head.  Just like on April 15, 1993 I accepted that I could no longer live with drugs and wanted a better way of life, well yesterday I finally realized that with running.  I accepted the fact that A. I did not want to run 100 miles and B was content with my decision.  I could have struggled and suffered like the others out there but I chose not to put myself through that type of pain any longer.  I have done it time and time again and feel I have proven my physical capabilities to others and more importantly to myself.

I am “preaching” a message of taking care of yourself in all areas of your life and I realized that if I am out there punishing myself just to say “ya I did that” and I am not living what I am “preaching”  I have never said exercise is the most important thing in my life but I have said and do say it is imperative to stay physically active.  Here is my issue, I miss being active on a daily basis and enjoying running my 6, 8 or 10 miles a day just for the benefits running provides.  I am spending to much time tapering for the event and recovering after.  I ripped a toe nail completely off yesterday so again it will be time before I can get going again.

I called my parents last night and said I only ran the 50 and you would have thought I had won the lottery.  My mom said “I am so proud of you for not doing the 100.  I have to tell you that made me feel really good.

I am not retiring from this lifestyle in any capacity I am doing it in a healthy and productive way which will enable me to enjoy the benefits for a longer period of time.

Ok I am pretty beat up and just want to relax, reflect on the blessings I have and enjoy some solitude.

Peace to all and Happy Valentines Day

Hey all,

Sorry it has taken me so long to post anything new here as I am constantly updating 3 Facebook pages and a Twitter page.

Here is the latest.  Racing for Recovery is presenting Running with Demons on May 8 here in Sylvania, Ohio.  Ticket information is here https://www.vendini.com/ticket-software.html?e=de6371e9ef7457eb75d7382ebd2524cc&t=tix.  If you can’t attend, please purchase 2 tickets and donate them back to us so we can utilize them for local rehabs.

Taxes are complete for 2009 and we are currently applying for grants to help fund our worthy program.

I am getting ready to run my first 100 miler this weekend http://ironhorse100kmclub.com/.  I have a pretty good idea of what is in store for me both good and bad but it is what I do.

Thanks to Fremont Parks and Recreation Center who implemented an indoor 10k yesterday which 80 people participated.  Racing for Recovery was the benefactor of the entry fees which resulted in $1260.00 for our program.

June 6 is the 6th Annual Racing for Recovery Half and Sprint Triathlon and we look forward to putting on another amazing event .

I am continuing to counsel as many people as possible and completely enjoy this aspect of my “job”.  I have worked very hard to be educated and licensed in this field.  I am 2 classes away from having my license valid through 2013.  If you are looking for a speaker and counselor to help in any capacity I am proud to say I am the “real deal” on many levels.

Enjoy your day and thanks for your support.

Todd