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Archive for November, 2008

EDDIE FREAS

Wednesday, November 26th, 2008

Hey all short and sweet here.  16 years ago right now I was drunk at my grandmas house sitting in her car ready to call it quits.  I can recall the emotional pain I was going through then but also the relief that it was all going to be over with soon and that my family and friends would not have to deal with my addiction any longer.  Today is a different story.  I am in Hawaii and thankful to not only be alive but to have all the goodness in my life today.  It is also amazing to see Eddie here and knowing his life is better as a result of the work he has put into it and the role that Racing for Recovery played in it.

Today is registration for the Ultraman and I have my speaking gig later today as well.  Take care and here is Eddie’s vlog.Eddie Freas Vlog 1

TC

THANKS, RADIO, EXCITED, NERVOUS,VLOG 3 AND GOOD SLEEP

Tuesday, November 25th, 2008

Hey everyone, I just wanted to get something up and say thank you to everyone who has sent me positive vibes on this event that I am about to do.  I am nervous but as always I completely understand why I do what I do.  When it gets rough and believe me I know it is going to get rough for Ultraman, I will think of the words that were sent to me and what this program has done for others that will keep me going.  So to you all who have supported me and Racing for Recovery THANK YOU.  Also to the person who wrote about hearing me speak to their 8th grade class and it changed your life, I did not have your contact info to respond but let me simply say I am humbled by your comments.  

Congrats to my friends who finished Ironman Arizona on Sunday.  For some it was their first and others are old veterans, that does not matter to me nor does your time (no offense) but that you finished the task and had fun doing it.  Thanks for supporting the Racing for Recovery garb.

I finally had a good sleep last night and should be on track from here on in.  Every time I travel I have trouble with the sleep thing.

I am being interviewed tomorrow morning 4:50 am (hawaii time) on 94.5 wxkr in Toledo, Ohio which will air on Friday 28 at 7:50 am est.  I believe you can listen on their site www.wxkr.com.

I miss home but this is what I do and I have to get it done.

Here is the latest vlog (God these things are wierd) 

Out for a run then a swim in the ocean.ultraman vlog 3

TC

SUN, RUN, TURTLES AND LOVING IT ALL

Sunday, November 23rd, 2008

Hello all day 3 here.  Yesterday we swam where the start of both the Ironman and Ultraman are and it was great.  Water was crystal clear and all kinds of fish below.  Also saw a huge turtle that I was totally freaked out with.  This is a pic of me and my coach Scott Horns.  I thank him for getting me in this kind of shape and being un-injured.

Congrats to Chance Dawson for kicking butt in is 5k run the other day.  I think he is 5 and his dad Tom is on the Racing for Recovery board of directors and is also a police officer in New Hampshire who has been responsible for several of my speaking engagements out there.

I can’t say it enough this is paradise on many levels.  I am so thankful for this life I have and I am humbled by it all.  It is also a great pleasure to see the impact first hand on how this program helps other to have Eddie here with me.

Did a nice run on Alii Drive with Eddie today which was a blast and then had the usual topless photo session with Brian.  (like those mel ha ha).

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Ok enough for now and here is the latest video blog or vlog as they call it.ultraman vlog 2

TC

HAWAII, PEACE, VIDEO BLOG and #’s FOR IRONMAN WESTERN AUSTRALIA

Saturday, November 22nd, 2008

Hello frombeautiful Kona Hawaii where it is still dark.  We are laughing because we have not seen the sun yet as we got in late last night.  We are out on our balcony right now listening to the waves and it is totally relaxing.  

Brian is here filming, Eddie met up with me in San Francisco and we met Scott in Kona.  All of our luggage made it and the van was so packed we all had bags on our laps and could not see each other for the drive to the condo.  We are just having a blast and this whole experience is going to be amazing.

I started reading “Become a Better You” on the plane yesterday.  Good book and made some sense to me on many levels.  I am all about improving myself and understanding I cant control other people or things and to be honest I do not want to.

Ok we are going to eat then head out and do a ocean swim as I do have a pretty big event coming lol.  Check out www.ultramanlive.com 

 

Also Brian (Mr. Mac) is helping me put video on here so here it is

ultraman diary 1

Regarding Ironman Western Australia visit www.ironmanwa.com on Dec 7 for the race.  Eddie is number 396 and I am 268.

Check these pics out and more later.

TC

HAPPINESS, CRABS, POKER, BANKING, JOHN GLEESON AND THANKS

Saturday, November 15th, 2008

I simply want to start this post by saying THANK YOU to all of you who have been so supportive to me these past few days.  The emails,phone calls, voice mails and text messages have helped me tremendously.

At the end of this post is an extremely important message to benefit a Racing for Recovery supporter by the name of John Gleeson.  Please take the time to read this and if you can help it is greatly appreciated.

I have done some things that have helped me lately and need to keep doing those as that is what helps me get and stay healthy.  Here is a little something to ponder here.  How do you keep a single crab in a bucket without a lid on it?  You add more crabs.  Think about that for a moment.  Ever watch a crab trying to get out of the bucket, all of the other crabs pull the one who is trying to get out down.  This is how negativity works.  If you surround yourself with drugs or an unhealthy lifestyle in some capacity you are going to get negative results.  However there is another option and that is to stay on the path of healthy living which includes not deliberately putting yourself into negative situations.

Since poker is such a huge thing now (why it is on ESPN I have no idea lol) here is another little thing to think about.  If you win 3 straight hands at poker then loose 16 do you stay in the game.  You can say to yourself “I know I lost the last 16 but I won the first 3 I know I can win again”  Does this sound familiar with regards to going back to the same situation or doing the same things and expecting different results?  That is the definition of insanity.  So the bottom line is are you a bad poker player for staying in the game or a good one for leaving after you realize you are not going to win?

Here is how I am now living my life and it is a banking analogy.  Everything we do is either a deposit or a withdraw in our daily living.  For example, when I wake up spend time with my kids, eat healthy, exercise, get some spiritual guidance, associate with positive people and educate myself in some capacity I am making deposits.  On the other hand, if I argue, yell, let other people dictate how I feel emotionally, not exercise and eat poorly I am withdrawing from my overall health.  I am choosing to only make deposits.

I did not create all of the sayings above they were given to me as advice by awesome people to help me help myself and I (like I always do) share information with others and hope that it helps in some capacity.

6 more days until I leave for Ultraman which is going to bring peace, tranquility, support and a ton of physical pain, all of which I am looking forward to.

I realize I can’t control other people or situations as they are going to do what they want regardless of what I say or how I feel but what I do have complete control of is how I respond.  This is not always easy but I am doing my best.

I want to say to my beautiful kids Skylar, Konor, Madison and Mason, I love you with all my heart and I promise to be the best dad I possibly can to you.  I will not be perfect and I know I will make mistakes (God knows that) but I will always be here for you.  Even if I am across the world, know you are all in my heart.  Skylar thanks for telling me about the David Cook song “The Time of My Life” it is not Motley Crue or AC-DC but it is a great song and very applicable to what is currently going on with your dad.

I am closing with this pic that was taken right before Ironman South Africa.  I do not have to say anything as the picture does it for me.

Enjoy your weekend and I will post again in Hawaii.

Todd

A Benefit for John Gleeson

 

November 29, 2008

 

As many of you may already know, John Gleeson was in a tragic accident on September 21st.  During his training for Ironman Florida, John was struck by a car while cycling. John sustained massive injuries including: Broken legs, Ribs, Sternum, both Hips and Neck. Accompanying his broken bones John also had severe internal injuries including a Punctured Lung and a Pulverized Spleen.

While in Stony Brook Hospital recovering from his injuries and awaiting a second hip surgery, John suffered a stroke paralyzing his left side, which has complicated his recovery.

On Saturday November 29th Johnʼs friends & family will be holding a benefit in Johnʼs honor. Please come out to support John, his wife Ashley, young daughter Sydney and baby due in February, as we can all help with Johnʼs recovery. The benefit will be held at Johnny McGoryʼs pub on Front Street in Massapequa (located on the north side of the Massapequa Park train station), November 292008 1-5pm. All proceeds will directly benefit John & his family. There will be a $10.00 cover charge, complimentary food and drink specials.  Individual donations are welcomed.  There will also be several prizes raffled off ranging from Gift Certificates to local retailers, Gym membership, Tickets to games, Spa Treatments & and A Night on the Town in Manhattan as well as many others. 

 

MOVING ON AND FINALLY RELIEVED and ESPN AGAIN

Wednesday, November 12th, 2008

As I write this I have 9 more days until I have to leave my dear kids for 20 days to do the Ultraman in Hawaii and the Ironman in Australia.  I am excited to bring Eddie Freas with me and watch him complete his first Ironman after viewing Racing for Recovery on ESPN in July 2007.

I have also taken some personal steps to get over the drama in my personal life.  I sought help for myself today and boy oh boy do you realize how messed up your mind and heart get when you do not take care of yourself. I was told today “Todd I have watched you give and give and give of yourself for the past 7 years and you have done nothing to take care of yourself”  That hit me like a ton of bricks.  I can hear some well one person saying while rolling their eyes “you travel the world what is your problem”.  It has nothing to do with triathlons.

 I know I have said and done things that are not good and have harmed others and I take full responsibility for that.  What I will no longer tolerate is being responsible for other peoples actions.  I have survived one hell of lot through a 13 year drug and alcohol addiction (self inflected of course because of my choice to use drugs) just like many of you have and I did not get sober, educated, start a family and a program to be treated without respect, encouragement, support, compassion and overall understanding.  It has been heart wrenching to not receive that from the people who you would think would be there without question.  I will no longer except unacceptable behavior.  

If any nay sayers are reading this and you are thinking about leaving a negative comment, do not bother just go away.  That means go away from me personally and professionally.  You all are a cancer that I do not need in my life anymore.  

I am choosing to associate with those who know the real me and appreciate what I and this program has to offer to others.

I want to say thank you to Jay Crawford from ESPN’s First Take as they are going to have myself and Eddie on the week of Thanksgiving (not sure on date will post soon) to discuss how Racing for Recovery has helped Eddie and his participation in the Ironman Western Australia with me.  Yeeee Haaa this is what I am talking about.

Peace to you and peace to me as well.

Todd

 

 

I PASSED

Friday, November 7th, 2008

I just received my letter confirming I have passed my exam and now hold the title of Licensed Chemical Dependency Counselor III (LCDC) in the state of Ohio.  

“with sobriety anything is possible”

Todd