136

Ya know not all times are good times in sobriety and I must say that this time sucks. I know my life has been an open book and I am sure at some point all of this will come out but right now I am keeping this absolute gut wrenching pain I am going through to myself. it is amazing to me that people close to you will constantly screw you over and then just basically say "get over it" I dont operate that way. Now I am not saying I am perfect God knows, I am a not even remotely close to that but I do not deliberately hurt others. If you are struggling with addiction listen up here. This is not and I repeat not and excuse to drinnk. These are thoughts and emotions we go through and a good friend of mine yesterday told me to "do the right thing" make the right choice" of course using is not the answer to our troubles and once again I will overcome and move on it is just going to be a rough go.


Good news out of all this mess? I dropped another 2 pounds and weigh 136 now. Keep the pain coming sunshine I love it.

TC